Everything’s instantly a memory and tiny golden things on the floor
I do the things that I’m strong enough for, mostly. This time perhaps in a more radical way. Actually, it would be more exact to say that I do the things that are feasible for my weaknesses. For instance, my present weakness finds it feasible to deal with tiny golden things and small stones, with pearls and plastic hearts. With fragile objects leaning on each other while trying to remain intact. And they do, more or less, yet they might also fall apart. They might get nudged, or stepped on. No one might notice. Sensitivity might fail.
It seems that I never get anything perfectly fixed. Something is always a bit off, the source material itself is usually askew. It’s probably more reasonable to put up with unevenness than to go after straight lines. In any case you know that there’s a bumpy wall behind the plasterboard. And below the laminate floor there are aslant wooden boards. Between the laminate and the wooden floor there is a somehow beautiful suffocating sheet of cellular plastic that will never decompose.
To breathe more easily, some air should be let between things, I think. The smell might be unpleasant at first. Yet, one gets used to unpleasant things. Smell will fade if letting in some more air. Smell will fade and freshness steps in and then you’ll get used to freshness and this will fade as well. Eyes get used to things, however, in closer inspection you’ll find new old stains. I’m afraid that there is no way to escape stains. You scrub if you’re able, but the stains are always more capable. I’m not sure whether to let them be or try harder.
Maybe a stain is honest. I don’t know. I don’t know how honest is reasonable.
Maybe everything would be easier without corners. If there were only round forms. But what will you do with these then? What will you do with a form where only semiliquid things fit, otherwise the space will be wasted. Though, a wasted space is perhaps a free space. Anyway, unless your things are semiliquid there will be new corners inside the form and what does it matter then. There’s no way to escape dust, I’m saying.
It might be reasonable to be semiliquid.
Laminate parquet, glass, rocks, daub, pearls, thread, wire rod, vase, water, acrylic paint, flower, wood, booklet